I will rise

 

 

 

When I woke up today, I realised,
My shattered dreams was bleeding o the floor,
My broken expectations were taking last breaths,
My unfilled love was clouding in vein,
 My underachievement was shouting me,
My shortcoming was flaunting on window,
My heart was aching, running wild.

 

 

I was numbed, shocked, stationary what to do,
Where to cry, for all these disasters,
whom to blame for  these mishappening,
Where to sprinkle my tears,
Whom to pour my grief,
Where to end my pain.

 

 

Then, after a heavy exhale,
I smile and spoke to me,
This is genesis of new beginning,
I will not be settled down, I will not rest,
My this  graveyard would be for my tomorrow,
Dear world, I will rise again.

 

 

©Abhishek Yadav -2017
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Because I am Man

When I am shattered, I can’t cry,
Have to smile, I have to show off nothing happened,
Because I am man,

 

When I lost, my beloved,
Have to collect myself, I have to carry on,
Because I am man,

 

When I am pierced,
I can’t announce, I have to keep quiet,
Because I am man,

 

When I am being cheated,
Have I to swallow, I have to wear silence,
Because I am man,

 

When I am in agony,
Have to relax, I have to keep calm,
Because I am man,

 

I can’t say I love you, I am not supposed to be emotional,
I can’t say I am sorry, I am not supposed to have weak,
I can’t say I need you, I am not supposed to be fragile,
I can’t say I am exhausted, I am not supposed to be robust,

 

All these, expectations, desires, rules and traditions
of this world, from  this society,  for this gender,
All are good, still, I would say to you
Men are not apathetic.

 

© Abhishek Yadav -2017

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Keep Waling

Who were with me,

Who are with me,

Who would come to me,

I don’t know, I never remember it, I would not ever ponder it.

 

People came to me and gone back,

People robbed me and enriched me with experiences ,

People cursed me and cherries my aspirations

People depressed me and motivated my dreams,

 

I never cry, I never yell,

I never disillusioned, I never blame ,

I never depressed, never settled down .

 

One thing which I did in my entire life,

That was keep walking,

Walking all around my dreams,

Walking over my chaos,

Walking in my sorrow,

Walking and just walking,

 

I did all these, entire of my life because I know something,

A secret of life,

Nothing is permanent and I am a solo traveler,

So keep walking.

 

© Abhishek Yadav-2016

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I am drowning

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Far from each other, on the different dimension of the world,

We are separated, departed, detached , divided from each other,

wounds have been healed, scars vanished,

Broken promises have been under carpet,

Ashes of emotions flew away,

Everything seems streamline,

Well established, pumping,

 and going smooth like nothing happened .

 

 

But whenever , I close my eyes ,

Stops seeing everything all around me,

 Then I listen,

An unborn cry,

 Waves of sorrows,

 Sound of tears,

Bitterness of feelings,

Echo of promises,

Lament of bonding,

And broken lines of time.

 

 

   I Feel hollow, a vacuum, within me,

 All these are around me, within me, outside of me, from all directions,

Coming from infinite, and continuously,

 Keep on coming

 

 

I don’t understand it, from where it is coming,

Just I could feel it’s pain, sorrow, agony, suffering, ache,

But not created by my heart, someone is breeding it,

And pouring on me.

 

 

This curse, these irrational waves are heavy and too much intense for me

Sinking me deep, far away my soul from me.

Help me, I am drowning

 

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© Abhishek Yadav 2016

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Please Come Back in My Life

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Desert makes us realize what the water is,
Snow makes us realize what the fire is,
Water makes us realize what the air is,
Smoke makes us realize what the sunlight is,
And, now my solitariness makes me realize the importance of yours.

 

Now I know, how much I was fastened to you,
How much I was devoted to you,
How much I was depending on you,
How much I was relying on you.

 

Now I am feeling, understanding all these,
When you are far-far away from me,
When I can’t accompany you,
When I can’t fondle you,
When I even can’t call you back in my life.

 

Without you, it feels like unambitious,
Without you, it feels like missing me,
Without you, it feels like I am incapable,
Without you, it feels like I am oblivion.

 

But now it’s late, too much late,
Nothing could be amended,
Time couldn’t be irreversible,
I hope I can go back to timeline and make myself understand that,

 

How much you are relevant to me,
How much I depend on you,
How much you are inseparable from me,
How much I savor on you,
How much I need you.

 

I covet my words could fly, make sound in your heart, and whisper,
Please come back again in my life.

 

© Abhishek Yadav- 2016

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I Am Sorry…….

 

When I smell pain in sunlight, mist disappeared from air,

Agony on my face by the moon, stars became disappearing,

Water became saline, colour of pain spared on canvas of sky,

Clouds gliding like lava on my head,

Lament of wolf could listen by me,

Rainbow now looking ugly, time became immobile,

No movement all around me.

 

 

 

Clouds anguishing all around me, nothing is appearing good,

I can realize nothing is going well around me,

Why this is so,

Everything is so inexplicable around me, nothing like known to me,

What is going on?

What is this going on around me….!

 

 

 

Now a could listen to a spiky echo in my ears,

Something likes piercing my heart,

I am feeling uneasy,

What is this genesis of all this,

Where is dejected feeling is coming from

I am going behind it.

 

 

There is something in shadow of bushes,

There is someone behind this darkness,

It is appealing sculpture is there, no there is someone,

This is someone, who is crying there,

My breaths are running fast, I touched her shoulders to turned,

Oh … it is you, my love..!!

 

 

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Crying fearlessly, carrying your broken heart in hands,

Tears passing all over body, grim face, volcanic eyes,

Bloody heart is melting and saying my name,

Oh, it is me … it is I am who did this to you,

 Who shattered your heart, broken you,

Unknowingly killed your faith, trust me,

Whipped out your emotions for me,

Rip off your dreams, your desires.

 

 

My girl what I did to you,

What I have done to you,

Oh..What I can do now,

 I am blank, astonished, stoned,

The only word which coming from my soul is,

I am sorry my love.

 

 

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© Abhishek Yadav 2015

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